age ain't nothin but a number

Idk, when I was younger and looked forward to my 18th birthday it seemed big, something I will never forget and always remember. But, now that it's around the corner, it's like whatever. I mean, what does turning 18 really mean? Yeah I can do some things on my own, I'll be looked at as an adult, but what else? I thought I would feel different, and look older, and idk just be a different person. I haven't reached any of my 18th bday goals yet and with DEC.21(my bday), being so close I don't think I will, but I'm going to try.

Oh yeah, I'm moving!!! To Dallas! Can't wait, I may move in January, hopefully sooner.

How do you turn it all around?

Depression
sadness
thoughts lost
happiness soon to be found

life changed
life made
lie turned upside down
yelling and fighting
ain't no one here to be ....

your FRIEND
your LOVE
your ONE AND ONLY
up and over everyone else ......
above and below
up and down

how do you turn it all around?

-Dasia

Holy smshh

Damn. I know I haven't posted in weeks, months maybe? But, my life has been a hectic piece of dog crap. Really, that bad. Right now I'm trying to sort some things out, i really want to blog about everything that's going on but, I'm not ready too.

All I have to say is ..... I see who really loves me now. Shame you have to go through something so tough to figure that out.

Peace*

the college blues: Pt.1

So yeah I've officially started college. And, no I'm not partying, sexing or drinking away like others. I commute to college meaning I've chose to stay home. Anywho it's just not what I thought. For some reason I thought it would be like the movies. I haven't made any friends yet, I'm broke as hell, and I haven't been shopping in what seems like forever! Well the last part wasn't important, but still. My classes are okay, the professors are cool and overall I love to say "I'm in college", cuz lets be real. How many people can say that? Especially black people. As a young black lady I'm proud to be in college and say it, and not walking around pushing a stroller with a baby on my hip. Get my point? Anyways on to the brokeness. Yeah, I'm broke. Like always. I need a job like more than badly, but being that I just started I want to wait it out and try to get used to things. The good thing is, I'm not being piled with loads of work(yet). But, so far so good. Maybe later on it'll get better.